If you’ve read my first post on my running journey, you already know that it’s taking me quite a bit longer than 10 weeks to complete my 10-week learn-to-run program. I can’t believe it. I only have 2 run days left to go then I’m supposed to be ready to run 30 minutes without a walking break. The end of my beginner program. Wow!
You know, what? I was surprised this morning. While I was lacing my shoes, I felt scared and nervous, instead of excited. What’s up with that? I couldn’t understand why I would feel scared after a year and half of training.
I was scared I would fail. What if I get on that treadmill and can’t make it to the end? What if I can’t do it? It would just be easier to quit now instead of taking a chance at failing.
I procrastinated. I almost didn’t go downstairs and run. Almost!
I remembered someone on the radio the other day, say something about “doing what you think you can’t do”. Well, I don’t think I can run 15 minutes without stopping. Twice! With just a minute walk in between? Heck no! I can’t do that!!!
That’s why I have to do it. That’s why I have to give it all I have and try.
Ah man, I hate it when I have to do something I don’t want to do…
I hopped on my treadmill and started my run. Once I got warmed up, it wasn’t so bad. I kinda liked it!
Ten minutes in, I thought: “Wow, this is longest I’ve run without stopping. I just don’t know if I can make it to fifteen!”.
But I did! I made it to fifteen minutes! Without stopping. I never thought I’d see the day. I remember when I was in my second week of my program, and I was completely overwhelmed by the idea of having to someday run for 15 minutes without a break. It seemed impossible.
Well I just did the impossible! Ha ha ha!
Let’s see if I can do the impossible again. Because you know, I have 15 more minutes to go…
Not only did I achieve the impossible twice in one morning, but I was able to increase my speed in the last 3 minutes of my run. I am so giddy with excitement. I can’t believe it. I just can’t believe it!
I remember now why I love running and why I don’t want to quit. Yes, I have my days where I REALLY don’t want to run. But that’s ok. As long as I don’t let it get the best of me. I have to go even when I don’t feel like it. Why? Well, look at what I was able to achieve when I didn’t want to run. Imagine what I can accomplish when I do want to run.
I can do the impossible. I can do the unimaginable.
What I did this morning might seem like a small feat for some of you. But for me, this was BIG. This was my Everest.
I was reminded today why I run. I was reminded why I’m not quitting.